I now realized where I was wrong. Why I wasn't moved and happy whenever someone complements me; or whenever I see some star, like, heart or comment notifications on my social network. Why I am not motivated even though I have read several self-help/motivational books; Or why am I not contented in spite of all my hullabaloo about having time alone to think and reassess myself and my supposed "realizations" during those trips. I now know why... I was in too deep with the thought of making an impression and showing off to people who don't know me just so I could gain their "likes". I got too greedy...
I got the chance to travel and be alone. To think deeply in a place where no one knew me. It really helped me appreciate things more. I realized that there's more to life than what I am seeing at the moment. There are still good things that's happening and I should be thankful for those.
With a smile and a plastered on mask of self awareness, it feels like I am cheating and faking myself… Others may see me as a practical or logical person when in truth, I don’t even know what I am doing. Who Are We Sometimes I wonder where
We often say things when we are angry that we later regret. That is why I developed a habit of counting or pausing before I respond to someone that's getting into my nerves. That way I wouldn't regret anything afterwards.