Breaking down. The walls I've destroyed steadily creeps back up again. The confidence and mindset I've created is slowly crumbling down. Caging me into and endless spiral of self-deprecating thoughts. The "realization" was short lived and feels more like a dream than a fact. Late night musings and moments of self-doubt. Got back to questioning... Continue Reading →
I got the chance to travel and be alone. To think deeply in a place where no one knew me. It really helped me appreciate things more. I realized that there's more to life than what I am seeing at the moment. There are still good things that's happening and I should be thankful for those.
The last time I posted an entry was on the 25th of May. It's already July... I haven't even posted about my birthday trip to Puerto Galera; And, to be honest, I don't really want to. I want to keep the details to myself and let it remain as an important, private memory. A point... Continue Reading →
Traveling alone for the first time is scary. Watching the news and reading articles about current events brings you lots of horrible thoughts. Thinking it might happen to you if you travel alone. On the other hand, when it comes down to it, you know you'll be missing out on life if you do not... Continue Reading →
I have been feeling lost and down lately. Well, not lately, lately, but for some time now (meaning when I turned 23 years old). I always blame it on my inability to be satisfied with where or what I am right now and my never ending envy of others.
I think it helps, when my mind wanders and goes through every worry I have in my mind. The more I think deeply, the more I get some semblance of an answer from myself. Everything momentarily becomes clearer. A glimpse of hope, a glimpse of light. That "Yeah. I can do this. I definitely can. I just need to get my act right and my mind straight."