I now realized where I was wrong. Why I wasn't moved and happy whenever someone complements me; or whenever I see some star, like, heart or comment notifications on my social network. Why I am not motivated even though I have read several self-help/motivational books; Or why am I not contented in spite of all my hullabaloo about having time alone to think and reassess myself and my supposed "realizations" during those trips. I now know why... I was in too deep with the thought of making an impression and showing off to people who don't know me just so I could gain their "likes". I got too greedy...
Breaking down. The walls I've destroyed steadily creeps back up again. The confidence and mindset I've created is slowly crumbling down. Caging me into and endless spiral of self-deprecating thoughts. The "realization" was short lived and feels more like a dream than a fact. Late night musings and moments of self-doubt. Got back to questioning... Continue Reading →
I just feel like I can do better somewhere else. I don't know if my mindset is the one to blame here... I really am lost. I've been debating whether to leave or stay.
I have been feeling lost and down lately. Well, not lately, lately, but for some time now (meaning when I turned 23 years old). I always blame it on my inability to be satisfied with where or what I am right now and my never ending envy of others.
"What are you doing? No, really, what do you want to do with your life. You're almost halfway with the average human life span and you still haven't found yourself yet. What do you honestly want with your life..?"
Here I am. Downstairs, got kicked out of the room because my roommate would be cleaning. Listening to Skinny Love for the nth time because I still couldn't get the meaning. Blanking while writing this entry. Sharing my thoughts on the internet where it would remain undiscovered by most or would be read by eyes... Continue Reading →
The quarterlife crisis is a period of life ranging from twenties to thirties, in which a person begins to feel doubtful about their own lives, brought on by the stress of becoming an adult. Quarter-life Crisis - Wikipedia I thought Quarter life crisis is a just a term being used by people without plans and people... Continue Reading →